pick n' flick

Just when it seems like I've forgotten about updating this blog, I come back to it on another crazed late night on the internet. It's funny how much time has passed since I've last posted. In fact, I considered creating a new blog under a new pseudonym for a fresh start... nah, too bad.

Let's face it. Everyone has lulls, slumps, and dead spaces, but it's time for a hard look at my sloth. I think my inability to care for this blog is simple. I simultaneously love and hate the internet. It is absolutely daunting how much material there is to acquire and absorb out there in code. I feel a weird obligation to be uber current and glut myself with information, but also an instinctual urge to unplug at all costs. 

Sometimes I find myself on a diet of reblogging and digi-lurking, binging on the web until sleep claims me. In the morning I am disgustingly tangled in a nest of stale sheets with my laptop tucked in next to me. I immediately take the dog out for a long walk in tall grasses. or hop on my bike for hills and shore, or stretch myself sore in yoga practice. I yearn to be in the wilds, somewhere remote of wi-fi, twitter, or social networking. I want to read books and write letters to distant friends, I want to be in the sun. 

Inevitably, I come back to the internet again, to communicate, to share on instagram, to translate my experiences into facebook updates, to check-in on the rest of the world. It triggers another lapse into a day spent staring at a computer screen, and the cycle begins again. 

I crave both lives, online and off. I resent ever relying on the internet, and end up cursing at a google search bar. I wish I was more well read, more film literate, more worldly, more aware, with a strong visual memory, and an even better vocabulary. Everything the internet makes me capable of being, without having to ever truly be. I feel frustratingly lazy, but I can't avoid it. 

Am I alone?

It is my goal to use this blog as a way to push myself to achieve. To do. Anything.

Therefore, I announce a new schedule of events here on this blog. In the next month, I will attempt to make a post everyday. Something, anything, doesn't have to be fancy.

Every week I will post a project I am working on, updates will ideally posted on Tuesdays.

I think I can do it.

Stay tuned folks.